Yesterday I started meditating in my own way and it felt great. As it gets closer to the time for me having to return to work I've been trying to fill my self love arsenal with power coping tools to help me get through my day to day when the job starts to get the best of me.
Sitting on my front porch green juice in hand, facing the sun with feel good tunes vibrating from my iPad set the tone for a really dope day. I got to float through my thoughts and address them as they came. Some thoughts were positive while others were filled with anxiety but I journeyed through them all given each thought the time they deserved before moving on to the next. I consider myself a mind runner meaning , its very hard for me to sit and focus because I'm constantly thinking about any and everything going on in my life and as a creative you can only image the amount of energy it takes to clear my thoughts long enough to permit creativity. Learning how to be patient with myself has been a great virtue in regards to my mental health.
After putting all my thoughts in there places I set an intention for the day. As you all already know right now I am really working on truly loving and appreciating the woman that I am now and as of recently I learned to be more open and willing to learn so that I can continue to evolve into the woman I am meant to be. Accepting that evolution takes time, I chose to take this growth journey a day at a time. Today's intentions and how I planned to achieve them:
Staying in the moment and only dealing with topics that bring me stress (going back to work, paying bills and ending toxic relationships) when it's time to deal with them. I chose to keep happy moments like this sacred and not allow stress to rob me of them.
Stop Coveting Others Success
Remember what the "old folks" use to say "The grass isn't always greener on the other side" Well, I feel compelled to share my truth by telling you it's hard for me not to envy, compare and at times feel some jealousy when it comes to my peers & this life consuming monster we call Social Media. Social Media has a real funny way of making you feel as thought your not doing enough when it comes to success but we often times tend to forget that its easy to look busy and it often times take a little time to be productive. With all of that being said, I chose to focus on my productivity and " take a little break "from Social Media only permitting myself to log on when it's needed (promoting projects and what not).
Being Kind to Myself and Celebrating the things I have accomplished
As many of you know, I am an author and this coming October will be one year since I published my book Thoughts Lost in Expectation . I use to be so hard on myself because my book didn't get the attention and instant gratification that some of my peers did but I had to really learn to get over that quickly. I am super competitive so learning how to humble myself when I felt like I was in competition was hard. I find myself giving me little pep talks like Aibileen Clark to remind myself that I'm worthy of going after and achieving my dreams.
And after many meetings and in prompt to lunch / dinner dates with some influential women and sister friends I've decided to re-release my project with a whole new look and possibly some teaser content to get you guys ready for the new book and several other projects I plan to release this year. I'm celebrating myself by truly and whole heatedly investing in myself and being myself. What works for "them" works for them and I have to find the path that works for me. I'm creating my own mold so that I only have myself to measure up too!
The best way to know love is to explore the love you have for yourself !